❤ incredulity

last post in blogger.

2011-05-17T11:50:00.002+08:00

well..

decided to ditch here for good.

jehannejaneyjane.wordpress.com

thepepperqueen.tumblr.com

i might drop by here again some other time!

alrights..

exam.

2011-05-04T10:52:00.001+08:00

woohoo!

lappy is alright already!

ok tutorials are finishing soon and that means my exam is coming.

june june june come fast!

alrights..

black and white.

2011-04-30T22:36:00.000+08:00

Oh man..

My lappy of five years was down!
Good thing is that my uncle is helping me to change the harddisk.
I have no money to get a new one now!

Bio test passed!
Woohoo.

Alrights..

first ever essay done!

2011-04-18T17:35:00.002+08:00

heh..

completed my essay in 4days and finally submitted yesterday!
WOOHOO!

time to relax abit before starting on my presentations and exams.
=)

alrights..

lovely school life.

2011-04-13T17:26:00.001+08:00

well..

bio test done.
i have a 2000 words essay to be completed by next monday.

very stressful life but i like it.
:)

alrights..

school life.

2011-04-05T10:25:00.003+08:00

woohoo..

am having my 3days off and no i wont be wasting it away.
today will be presentation of my bio and tmr i'll start on my essay!
hope to hop by NYP on thurs for the final study of bio test.

oh and i'm having classes on these 3days.
did i mentioned how much i love going to school although the assignment and tests kill.
i always had Yuchen beside me and we will discuss even during working.

so this month i'll stay focus on my presentation and then i can party in May!

i want to go BKK so bad!

alrights..

busy

2011-04-03T10:18:00.005+08:00

oh man..

it's april already.
i've got assignements and test and presentations due this month. many.
and i must die die have 1000 words of essay this week if not i'm dead.

alrights..

=(

2011-03-15T12:20:00.003+08:00

oh well..

assignments and assignments.
the deadline is coming!

stomach flu again.
=(

oh yes.
Happy Birthday Mummy and Catherine!

alrights..

PD

2011-03-09T18:27:00.001+08:00

well..

went to Port Dickson over the weekends.
i love the hotel but the travelling sucks.
i slept all the way.
LOL

more assignments coming up.
and i dont know how to write essay!
goodness.

alrights..

degree!

2011-03-04T09:27:00.001+08:00

heh..

had my first lesson yesterday.
and no joke seriously, i'm really studying degree.
all the notes are so hard to understand!

but am looking forward to completion.
=)

alrights..

school!

2011-03-02T15:45:00.001+08:00

oh well..

it's already March.

went for orientation on Monday.
starting school tmr.
WOOHOO.

alrights..

march march march!

2011-02-18T10:09:00.001+08:00

woohoo!

the email is here!
i cant wait to start now!

valentine's day.

2011-02-14T16:47:00.000+08:00

Heh..

Happy Valentine's Day to people.

I've got my best surprise during work today.
Thanks hunney.

Celebrated at Hide Yamamoto, MBS last Saturday.
Will upload the photos on fb.

Alrights..

bye

2011-02-06T23:53:00.000+08:00

too many thoughts running in my mind.

i.want.to.stop.

CNY 2011

2011-02-05T12:31:00.002+08:00

woohoo!

CNY is finally here!

ANG BAOS ANG BAOS ANG BAOS.

had 4days off and i'm enjoying every single day, despite the fact that i'm down with flu and cough again.

so i cant go around and talk cos i have no more voice.

and hun was so sweet to me even though he's sick too.

finally able to meet up with everybody and i miss you all the most.

alrights..

one more month!

2011-02-01T18:27:00.000+08:00

oh good.

1st Feb today.
lalallalalallalallalala.

alrights..

last day of jan

2011-01-31T15:05:00.002+08:00

hmm..

last day of Jan today.
i know i mentioned this in every post but i cant wait for March to come!
WOOHOO!

CNY is coming and my clothes are here.
heh.

alrights..

Hort Park.

2011-01-27T10:43:00.001+08:00

woohoo..

this is at Hort Park(if i'm not wrong).

ok so February is coming, then soon March is on the way!

wahahahahha!

alrights..

eventful sat.

2011-01-26T19:32:00.002+08:00

heh..

ok i shall post 1 random photo in every post now.

went Southern Ridges walk last Saturday, gave up at Henderson Waves.

CSI exhibition after that with hunney, i'm his assistant. LOL

then to queensway for shopping, made me feel like buying all the sneakers!

schedule's up.

CNY is next week!

woohoo i'm going to buy goodies later.

alrights..

photos finally!

2011-01-19T09:33:00.003+08:00

oh good..

i should just upload this photo.

Dearies reunite again!

maybe we can take a group photo everytime we meet then do a collage at the end of the year.

eh meaningful!

ok another photo.

the complete ANG family(and still increasing).

ok i guess i'm too hyper today.

alrights..

1st mc of 2011

2011-01-12T12:09:00.002+08:00

oh man..

had my first mc of the year.
need ample rest for my bad bad flu.

am meeting Dearies later like finally!
i believe our xmas exchange will be a success!
WOOHOO.

started using an organiser which Hazel gave to me last year.
ohhhhhh it's so cute and all my colleagues are praising it.
:)))))))))))

seriously cant wait that day to come!

alrights..

random update.

2011-01-06T10:36:00.002+08:00

heh..

night shift over the weekend.
i was busy to the max with confused pt and almost 2pages of changes.
goodness!

and so rested 3days gao gao.
going back to work today.

i cant wait for March to be here soon!

alrights..

1st day of 2011

2011-01-01T13:23:00.000+08:00

WOOHOO!

1st day of 2011!
i dozed off after counting down.
wahahahah!

=))

recap of 2010.

2010-12-31T22:33:00.005+08:00

heh..

2011 is coming in few hours' time.
let me just do a small recap of 2010.

became a clubber and stopped eventually.
met Beicheng and he's my sweet honey now.
got rejected for adv dip but currently heh heh(still a secret).
sign up Yoga and enjoyed hot yoga to the max.
HK tour with Xinyi, Huiling and Alex.
TW trip with Huiling, Anna, Shirley and NG
still surviving in ward although people are pulling me down still.
had a quiet xmas and NYE this year instead of celebrating in town.
am officially 22years old but still a childult.
got E-P2 and Blackberry Bold.
went to almost all the museums in SG and exhibitions in Science Centre.
watched Show, Jay Chou and Mayday concert.

it's not in order and i just typed whatever that came to my mind.
2010 is not a bad year.
but 2011 will be a hard year for me i guess, but i'll enjoy it fully!

Thanks ANG family, Hazel, Xinyi, Bok Hwee, Huiling, NG, Anna, Liqing, Yu Chen, Yasoda, Syafiqah, Catherine, Elsa, Tang, Carmen, Xinyi(Judo), Beicheng and everybody(too many to name all!) who had helped me in any ways! =D

i will try to blog and tweet more!

alrights..

xmas shopping done!

2010-12-21T10:48:00.001+08:00

woohoo!

finally settled everything yesterday.
and presents too!

schedule's up.

alrights..

accepted!

2010-12-17T10:59:00.001+08:00

hmm..

i got accepted!
WOOHOO!

and bonus coming on the way.
cant wait to meet up with all my friends and celebrate xmas.
=)

and facial is always so naise!

alrights..

xmas season

2010-12-09T19:26:00.002+08:00

heh..

just want to update this space.

passed my BCLS with breeze.
getting back on track.
made a decision which i really hope i turned out well.

and bonus is coming!
wahahahah!
hun is going to help me to do financial planning!

xmas present exchange is still going on.
i love this season.
and of course, this year i have you.
=))

alrights..

last month

2010-12-01T00:11:00.001+08:00

well..

1st December already.
the last month of the year.

got mc again.
headache is getting worse.
i wonder is it migraine or not.

xmas is coming soon.
i will be be busy buying presents for exchange!

alrights..

updates.

2010-11-23T00:21:00.003+08:00

heh..

i should try to update this space frequently like in the past.
sometimes i just shut myself out of these cyberworld.

so had my last birthday celebration with other November babies at Heaven's Loft last Friday.
woohoo.

had a preceptee and had trouble teaching her.
i hope this can finish fast.

updated my schedule.
how i wish 2010 can end fast.

alrights..

back to work.

2010-11-13T23:23:00.003+08:00

well..

long time since i last updated.

had a very great birthday this year.
=)

back to work since Monday.
am trying to get back the flow once again and teaching my new preceptee.
oh goodness.

faced with many obstacles recently.
i dont know how to overcome it.
all i can do is to brood over it.

thanks BC for trying to cheer me up.
=D

alrights..

Chapter 2.2 starts now..

2010-11-03T12:00:00.000+08:00

YAY!

today is my special day!
=))

last page of Chapter 2.1

2010-11-02T23:49:00.002+08:00

well..

my last few moments of being 21yrs old.
not a bad one actually.
=)

thanks everybody who had celebrated with me.
and the surprise you given me.

Chapter 2.1 had full of ups and downs.
but i'll stay strong and continue with my life.

Chapter 2.2 coming soon...

alrights..

2010-11-01T23:02:00.000+08:00

Yo..

1st November today, my favourite month.
On leave from today.
WOOHOO =D

Celebrations' still going on.
Will blog about it when it's all over.

And I've painted my nails red.
for halloween and birthday.
Wahahahahaha!

Got lots of good stuffs from Yasoda.
Heh.

Alrights..

celebrations.

2010-10-27T11:15:00.002+08:00

hmm..

weekend night ended.
not a good one as i didnt slept enough.

celebration starts this week.
1st celebration: 3days off.
heh

happy 4th month.
i believe we can overcome all the problems.
=)

alrights..

stupid work.

2010-10-18T18:21:00.002+08:00

well..

work had never been good lately.
everybody including me had this 'forced-to-stay-here' look.
i'm trying to endure all these nonsense.

am planning for birthday celebrations already.
no time no time!

high tea buffet with friendleagues last sat.

anyway schedule's up.

alrights..

more gatherings please!

2010-10-10T23:37:00.000+08:00

heh heh..

it's 10/10/2010 today!
a very special day!

night shift's over.
it's all about call bells.
goodness.

Senior Aydeng's wedding ceremony just now.
it's all about the blissful moments.
got to catch up with judokas and had fun!

heading to night safari with dearies tmr!
woohoo!
i seems to be going there every year during Halloween periods!

cant wait for more gatherings.

and thanks for what you did today.
=))

alrights..

gatherings.

2010-10-04T10:41:00.002+08:00

well..

prisoners are given a 2nd chance to prove themselves.
so why cant you give me a chance to prove myself?
i'm not trying to say i never had mistakes before.
but have you ever thought that i still forgive you even though you hurt me before?

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

lots of gatherings last week.
from dearies to friendleagues to alive gallery to fatin's birthday party.
=)

from today onwards i have my name in schedule already.
no more a replacement.

anyway schedule updated.

alrights..

F their life.

2010-10-01T16:41:00.003+08:00

F all their life to the max.
this is all nonsense and we have to tolerate with that just because we never study much and you studied alot.
please remember we are not under you, we are around to assist you.
please appreciate all the work done and not blame us as if we didnt help.
you cant fucking do anything if we are not around.

November to come quick before i break down.

the 3rd.

2010-09-27T21:06:00.002+08:00

heh..

worked as junior today.
busy but i have helpful people around.
=)

lots of gatherings this week.
i'm looking forward to it!

lastly, Happy 3rd month and his 1st day of work.
=))

alrights..

2010-09-25T23:26:00.000+08:00

well..

still surviving well with all the craps happening.
i will stay strong and not let you pull me down!

Happy Birthday my dear brother anyway!

alrights..

junior night.

2010-09-19T23:40:00.002+08:00

well..

finished night.
first time being junior.
no joke.
too tired.

went to kite festival and clarke quay on Saturday.
fun but walked alot.

perhaps it's time to let go the past, and forget those people, cos they dont remember me too.

alrights..

sick.

2010-09-12T14:44:00.001+08:00

well..

night shift done.
2nd night was horrendous.

SGS gathering yesterday.
everybody changed for the better.

fell sick.
shiet.

alrights..

strong janey

2010-09-07T14:48:00.002+08:00

woohoo!

managed to finish my 6days work straight last week.
Janey is strong and not going to take any mc!

went Haji Lane on Saturday after work with friendleauges.
i shopped at one shop till drop.
heh.

fish head steamboat on Sunday with 'ANG' family.
YUMMY.

anyway schedule's up.

and dearies meet up soon! maybe all 10 together!
wahahahahaha!

alrights..

hope it goes well.

2010-09-01T10:56:00.000+08:00

oh well..

1st day of September.

and i received good news.

=))

hot yoga is fabulous.

i need to go for more.

Step Up 3 with Xinyi.

the dance moves never fails to WOW me.

Xinying's last day on 31st August.

will miss her lots.

alrights..

hope.

2010-08-30T10:19:00.003+08:00

hmm..

another night done last week.
very noisy with all the patients shouting and blah.

went for yoga yesterday with Huiling!
i certainly enjoyed although i was struggling.
heh more and more please!

today will be the day that i finalise my decision.
wish me luck please.
=)

alrights..

dearies.=)

2010-08-25T09:56:00.002+08:00

heh..

Elsusa finally uploaded this so i kope from her blog.

LOL.

hope dearies can meet up more and hope next year plan will be a success!

=))

woke up early for scrub fitting.

must slim down more then i'll look tiny too.

heh heh.

and i cant wait to start yoga again and chiong all the way.

alrights..

Liar Game!

2010-08-24T12:11:00.003+08:00

hmm..

mc today.

lesson learnt: dont eat meds like anyhow, the side effects can make you suffer.

so went to watch Liar Game - The Final Stage last Sunday.

very nice!

wahahahahhahah.

oh yes, am joining Huiling, Yasoda and Syafiqah for yoga sessions.

should start to exercise since i'm lazy to run.

heh heh.

alrights..

the meetups.

2010-08-20T10:00:00.004+08:00

well..

last weekend's night done.
luckily Irfan is around, he accompanied me when i giving meds.
LOL.

LSCN done.
but it will be useful only when i need to do full resus.

met up with yaptang and elsusa on Wednesday.
full of laughter and gossips.
like '2 luncheon meat'
=DD

met up with Hazel and Xinyi yesterday.
back to talking about old days and manymany topics!
=DD

uploaded a photo if not the blog is really too clean!
at least i got to take a photo with Ip Man ok!
wahahahahhahaha!

alrights..

dedicated to you.

2010-08-14T18:12:00.000+08:00

All thanks to Chen Beicheng, my life is a complete circle now.
I have family who is always there for me.
I have friends who support me.
I have my work which keeps me going.

So I don't have any excuses to whine or complain.
I can share my joys and sorrows, and not keep it to heart like what I did in the past.

I'll start trying from now on.

=)

Anyway I'm addicted to Liar Game.
Shall start watching all the jap series and anime, like how I loved those in the past.

Alrights.

hohohoho

2010-08-11T22:40:00.003+08:00

heh..

so far so good.
just that i have to make sure that i reached home before 12MN everyday.

so dearies, we should meet at least twice a week.
we had been losing so much!

sometimes i just hate my colleagues so much.
i wonder why they can change into another person when they are at higher position.

anyway my consecutive 7days work going to end soon.
=))

alrights..

FML.

2010-08-06T23:09:00.002+08:00

why do i feel that i'm at fault for everything that happened?

anyway schedule's up.

bird park!

2010-08-06T00:14:00.003+08:00

heh..

Jurong Bird Park today, or rather yesterday.
all the birds are so interesting!
and my favourite penguins and owl are there too!

and i need to work 7days before i get my next precious day off.
total crap.

alrights..

the moments.

2010-08-04T01:20:00.002+08:00

well..

depressed moments.
it actually lingered in my mind, when i thought i already got over it.

just hope that my year end plan will be a success.
if not i might just give up on making plans in the future.

November's travel plan cancelled.
now i'm worried that actually no one even remembered my special day.

totally no idea when to take leave for next year.
i dont want to slog my life and dread this job again.

alrights..

loots from HK

2010-08-02T17:58:00.003+08:00

oh well..

i forgot to mention about my loots from HK.

i bought 6outerwears: 2adidas, 2zara, 1cotton on, 1 from random shop.
yes i'm shocked by myself too!
but everything is so cheap lah.

bought a top and 3bags too.

ok i think that's enough for the whole year.
and i certainly wants to go back HK for shopping again.
heh.

alrights..

longchamp!

2010-08-01T23:55:00.000+08:00

woohoo!

1st August today.
and so it's my day.
HAPPY NURSES DAY!
=)

oh yes, i finally bought my long-awaited longchamp bag!
YAY a gift to reward myself.
=))

and i adore my ♥addiction to the max.

alrights..

heh heh

2010-07-29T17:57:00.003+08:00

hmm..

too lazy to update sometimes.
nothing much happening actually.

Jay Chou's concert with Hazel and Xinyi.
Flyer with quanquan.
and meetups with ♥addiction.

oh yes, and bonus came in.
i'm waiting for that longchamp bag!
and probably a itouch?

alrights..

back!

2010-07-23T10:38:00.002+08:00

heh..

i'm back from Hong Kong since Wednesday.
the shopping is dope!
but no more Jetstar flights.

and i miss my addiction lots!
=))

alrights..

flying off tml!

2010-07-15T13:14:00.002+08:00

well..

night ended.
a peaceful one.

sleeping day today but i can only sleep at night.
so many errands to run!

am flying to HK tml like finally.
i want to escape from everything now.

and i'm very surprised by myself.
i forgo all my beliefs because of you.

alrights..

=((

2010-07-14T18:26:00.001+08:00

very disappointed.
FML.

schedule.

2010-07-08T10:26:00.001+08:00

hmm..

i seriously hope 16july comes fast.
in need of a break.

schedule's up.

alrights..

♥

2010-07-04T13:18:00.002+08:00

oh man..

had not been updating.
too many activities.
hard rock dinner, dearies metup, buffet dinner, XYZ's birthday celebration.

and not forgetting the times spent with addiction♥.

anyways Happy Birthday to YAP TANG WEE!
=)

alrights..

heh

2010-06-27T16:06:00.000+08:00

the need.

2010-06-25T12:58:00.002+08:00

well..

i dont see the point now.

be strong, Janey!
=)

speechless.

2010-06-24T20:48:00.002+08:00

well..

you guys have time to meet other friends.
but in the end....

it's ok.
i had enough.

disappointed.

2010-06-22T21:48:00.001+08:00

well..

am disappointed.
very very disappointed.
my heart sank so badly till i dont feel like doing anything.

and only this issue can make me feel this way.
=((

alrights..

BB post.

2010-06-21T16:08:00.000+08:00

Heh..

First time blogging with BB.

So going shopping now!
Need to find casing immediately.

So schedule's up on 'schedule' page.
And I can sense July is coming soon!
WOOHOO!=DD

Alrights..

day off!

2010-06-20T21:58:00.001+08:00

well..

day off today and tml.
spent my day sleeping today.

was out yesterday at Changi Airport.
=)

need to buy lots of things but i'm so lazy to find!

alrights..

yawns.

2010-06-18T11:12:00.001+08:00

heh..

night shift ended.
it's all about admissions.

watched Karate Kid.
nice but draggy.

Dim Sum is fabulous as usual. =)

am loving all the late nights. =)

alrights..

nothing to update.

2010-06-14T11:52:00.002+08:00

oh good..

i wanted to update but i have nothing to talk about.
hmm

IT fair on Saturday, squeezy as usual.
then kbox.

yesterday was day off.
i slept til 2+.
nice one!

and i hope July can come fast!

alrights..

random

2010-06-10T10:50:00.002+08:00

heh..

flu recovered, but with cough occassionally.
night shift done, lesson learnt, not to work when real sick.

i think that's all.
haha

alrights..

想你就寫信

2010-06-05T00:18:00.002+08:00

看你在摇椅上织围巾
一个人在客厅
只剩下壁炉里的光影
木材在燃烧的声音

画面像离家时的风景
我那年的决定
许下的愿望都很好听
泪却红了眼睛

你说想哭就弹琴想起你就写信
情绪来了就不用太安静
你说爱了就确定累了就别任性
原来感觉是如此亲近

还记得院子后的枫林
学燕子在飞行
我们聊长大后的憧憬
珍重的话很轻

if feelings and emotions can be expressed so easily...
=)

meetup.

2010-06-04T23:15:00.003+08:00

hmm..

night ended.
very bad one cos i was down with flu.

met up with cousin Song Yun yesterday.
ate the best ramen i've ever tasted so far.
heh

cracked stupid jokes in train.

and i'm so looking forward to my Sunday off.
=)

alrights..

1st day of June.

2010-06-01T17:05:00.000+08:00

hmm..

1st day of June.
and i'm down with flu still.

realised that i could end everything.
and yes, i did it.
=)

alrights..

last day of May!

2010-05-31T20:47:00.003+08:00

oh man..

today is the last day of May.
but soon July will come and i'm on my way to HK!
woohoo!

fever came unexpectedly and i got mc again.
oh crap.

ok i admit that i'm lazy to upload photos.
hate to do one by one.

am on the recovery process, physically and emotionally.

alrights..

where is the passion?

2010-05-28T11:08:00.003+08:00

well..

no point making myself so miserable whenever i'm in morning shift.
i'm just forcing myself to go with the flow.
that's not what i wanted when i joined this path 2 years ago.

if this is going to continue, i might leave the place by this year.
i dont enjoy working anymore, unlike in the past.

alrights..

fruitful 5days!

2010-05-24T22:50:00.003+08:00

woohoo!

i had 5days off again!
spent the last 4days fruitfully.
=)

Thursday was with Wanshi to get our BB.
yes i finally got my BB Bold 2.
heh

Friday was meetup with Dearies, like finally.
then St James with Wanshi and Ivy.

Saturday was Show's concert which i enjoyed!
then St James(yes again).

Sunday was early birthday celebration for Hazel.
then crap with the guys till late.

today slept gaogao.
then met up with quanquan and Sya for dinner.

ok there should be photos.
lazy to upload, tml will be the full version.

alrights..

2010-05-23T16:59:00.001+08:00

ok i have quite a few things to blog about.
tml tml tml!!

RIP Sony Ericsson Xperia 1.

2010-05-20T23:31:00.002+08:00

This post is specially dedicated to my Sony Ericsson Xperia 1 a.k.a xiaoxian.

i remembered when i first saw you, i immediately fell in love.

the versatile design,

the most beautiful qwerty keyboard which your sibling X2 and Nokia N95 cant even compete,

the steel battery cover,

the sensitive touchscreen,
the Windows Mobile interface,

the sleek black colour of you.

you attacts all attention you ought to have as you are so wonderful.

i'm thankful to Sony Ericsson to have created you.
you must be the best invention SE had, at least for me!

but as days goes by, you start to fail.

you respond slowly, your keyboard had lots of problem.

i sent you for sevice twice and hope that you can be with me longer.

but slowly, your screen never change when i slided up,

you turn off by yourself and it's so hard to wake you up again.

then on 14/5/10, you went blank and never wake up again.

i went to send you for service, but they say your motherboard needs to be changed.

then i realised perhaps it's time for me to let you go, if they change your motherboard, you will another X1, not the one i had.

i will move on and get another phone and i know you will support me.

i will take you back from the service centre and put you back into your box.

RIP Sony Ericsson Xperia 1 a.k.a xiaoxian.

you will be remembered forever.

bleah.

2010-05-20T16:41:00.001+08:00

hmm..

another night done.
no comments about it.

X1 had left, really felt sad as that's my 1st favourite phone of all.

ok meeting wanshi later.
meeting dearies tml.
show's concert on sat.
heh

alrights..

janey is not the best.

2010-05-16T18:31:00.002+08:00

oh well..

been feeling real low.
then i realised it's because i dont let people to see how weak i am.
acting strong had always been a norm to me.

all thanks to people who encouraged.
however i'm not able to agree with everything.
Janey can never be the best.

alrights..

PMS

2010-05-12T17:11:00.001+08:00

oh well..

it's PMS week again.
totally hate this.
it makes me sleep like i'm in coma.

schedule's up.

i hope the ambulance driver's words is right.
=)

alrights..

dead.

2010-05-11T21:21:00.000+08:00

i want to die.
BYE.

suay night.

2010-05-09T12:55:00.003+08:00

hmm..

another night done.

and this time is the most suay one.

tell me which ward use e-trolley twice in a shift.

oh crap.

luckily i have the best colleagues with me.

all thanks to them, i managed to finish work fast and no need to stay after my shift ends.

now that's what i called 'teamwork'

and ward 10D is always proud of this.

partied last night.

i almost fell asleep.

YAWNS.

Mother's Day today.

and we got this for her.

ok i think i should try to upload photo in every post.

all my posts look so plain!

but i'm just so lazy!

alrights..

mixed feelings.

2010-05-04T23:31:00.002+08:00

well..

i have mixed feelings today which i hated it so much.

my heart was so happy when i saw you.
but slowly my brain began to take control and i was reminded that i have to forget you.
but my heart was unable to follow and again, you were in my thoughts the whole day.
all my efforts had gone down to the waste.

i rather you were been posted to other place, so i can force myself to get you out of my mind, like how i did it successfully during that time...

alrights..

heh heh

2010-05-01T15:11:00.002+08:00

heh..

it's Labour Day today and i got PH.
nice one.

party till late again.
nice one.

am going to get new gadgets soon.
nice one.

lastly, i'm feeling better and soon, he's out of my mind.
nice one!

alrights..

等待. 期望

2010-04-28T01:11:00.001+08:00

这几天，我都在为这事烦恼着
但我想，真的是时候该放手了

说真的，我不敢去等待
因为每一次都换来失落
可是我从来都不学乖
每当我决定放弃你时，你就会有所举动
这让我以为我们或许真的有可能
但我越是期待，越是绝望

这一次，我决定彻底的放弃
我要学乖了
我不会去等待，也不会有什么期望
我要让自己休息

你只是一场美丽的梦
我相信以你的样貌和性格，一定会有一个跟你批配的人
我会永远祝福你，希望你永远幸福
再见。=)

我知道我很快就会没事，因为这已经不是第一次了
现在专心努力工作最重要
我要赚很多很多钱，所以不会有也没时间谈恋爱

hehheh

2010-04-22T22:55:00.002+08:00

heh..

night shift over.
tired as usual.

meetup with Hazel and Xinyi is dope.
=)

alrights..

as usual

2010-04-19T17:18:00.003+08:00

heh..

Mayday concert on last Saturday.
i really enjoyed myself, although i expected more.

Jee's 22th Birthday yesterday.
i saw the bond between brothers.

day off today.
i'm left alone at home, waiting for text reply.

fell sick again.
why not let me have some major illness and rest forever.

it's ok, next time
i've been saying that to myself.
so how many 'next time' do i exactly have.

alrights..

more concerts please!

2010-04-14T12:15:00.004+08:00

hmm..

PMS had been killing me for this few days.

received good news in the morning.

so the 3rd concert for this year is confirmed!

and short gatherings like this never fail to make my day. =)

ok need a visit to museum soon.

alrights..

pissed.

2010-04-13T21:04:00.002+08:00

oh well..

i will give up on R cos i know i have too.
when May comes, that will be the time that i slowly forgets about him.
but i need the time, it's not like as though it's an offence to like someone.
when i said his name or mentioned it randomly, people treated me as crazy or stupid or give the 'WTH' look.
this lead me to think that i have no right to like someone randomly, as though i must like people in my circle only.
i just hate all the comments given.
yes i may look stupid, but hey, that's a woman in love ok.
everybody expressed it differently when it comes to love, especially woman.
i know i gave a very stupid look whenever people mentioned about him, but please be reminded you might have this look too.
i do not dare to express my feelings now, fearing that people will think that i'm abnormal again.
i felt discouraged.
yes i know there's no single chance of us being together.
but people dont need to say till nobody will like me.
yes that's what i think!
and you guys will never know how envy i was when everybody is so blissful.
then i want to find a partner too, but often people thinks that i'm crazy.

i guessed next time when i found a partner, i'm not going to say it out.
or perhaps i should stayed on to the belief that i had few years back.
nobody is supporting anyway.

bad pms

2010-04-10T18:24:00.003+08:00

well..

night shift's over.
and i had really enough of it!

having a very bad PMS.
stop saying all the words.
i may look like a fool.
and you guys will never understand me.

ok no mood to upload TW's photos.

F everybody's L lah.

2010-04-06T23:25:00.002+08:00

well..

ok i just want to whine.

i believe everybody hope that they could have more than 24hrs in a day to do stuffs other then work.
but come to think of it, if we really have more than 24hrs a day, we will use that time to work even more.
that's adults.
i always hope that i have more time to meet up with everybody but people will rather rest than meeting up.
that's adults.
i met up with friends recently and i got shocked by myself.
we can talked almost everything in the world last time but now, we are left with nothing to chat about which is worse than strangers.
no wonder i heard from my colleagues that as you get older, you will have lesser or even no friends.
that's really true cos all spent their time working or with their partners!
i'm really sad that i'm part of this adults' world.

i just got so irritated when everybody started asking 'when can all of us meet?'
i should be asking whether you guys want to meet or not really.
i should get a boyfriend soon, then i can have excuses to say that 'oh sorry, no time'

FML.

back!

2010-04-02T23:02:00.000+08:00

woohoo!

i'm back in one piece!
ok will not really blog manymany cos it's about the same as the Aug'09 trip.

anyway,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CARMEN!

alrights..

taiwan again!

2010-03-26T23:50:00.003+08:00

hoho..

am leaving to Taiwan in few hours' time.
this time round with Huiling, Shirley, NG and Anna!
finally a break from irritating ward.

i'll make sure that i come back in one piece.
=)

alrights..

last day.

2010-03-26T12:32:00.002+08:00

heh..

ok night finished.
i enjoyed this round of night because there's Syafiqah and Huiling!

then omnicell training on sleeping day.
very good invention. haha

and so today's the last day to prepare.
need to head out later for last min shopping.

and thanks Hazel, Xinyi and everybody who appeared in the video.
felt so touched although i dont recognised myself!

alrights..

bleah

2010-03-23T11:15:00.001+08:00

argh..

i just hate rainy days.

and i've got really no time left.
shiet.

alrights..

sick.

2010-03-20T11:37:00.001+08:00

well..

got flu, sore throat, cough and blah.
1st mc of the year.

ok back to rest.
my head is so heavy now!

alrights..

Kaiji.

2010-03-19T10:41:00.001+08:00

hoho..

ok long time.

and i finally watched Kaiji!
woohoo!

alrights..

old.

2010-03-15T22:44:00.002+08:00

heh..

weekend night ended.
and i think i'm getting older.
was so tired during sponging time!

ok no more time left.

Happy Birthday to Catherine and Mother!
=)

alrights..

no time!

2010-03-12T16:21:00.002+08:00

oh well..

i just realised i have no extra time to prepare!

anyway schedule's out.

alrights..